chasing doubt

Chasing Doubt
 
It is something that sneaks in, creeps in from seemingly nowhere but is so powerful that is can halt you in your tracks. You can’t see it or hear but you sure can feel it. It may strike you in the pit of your stomach or may linger inside your mind. Maybe it lies near your heart waiting to zap your courage with a stealthy swoop. Where does it come from? Doubt, why, why do you sneak into my life and play havoc with it? What have I done to you? Your World can feel so right and then, then it sneaks past the guards to your soul and plays inside those gates. You don’t feel and then you do as you pause to take note of it. Do you fear it? Are you waiting for it to pop its ugly head out at you right when you don’t need it? Doe sit wait for that final step and make you not trust it? Not always, sometimes it creeps up on you before you take your first step!! Making each step a little less sure and little more wobbly with each doubt deep inside throwing you off balance.
 
Where is it? I can’t see it? I can feel it!! The chase it on as you try to catch the un catch able. Erasing that doubt is now what you focus on and this, this is what it wants as now you are on its fleeting path and not the path of your choosing but the path of its choosing. Has it won now? When you think you have it doesn’t it disappear? Then you turn to try and pick up where you left off to only find a disappointment awaiting you. The goal you were chasing, it left when doubt came. Can you find its trail and catch back up? Maybe, it depends on how long you chased that doubt. How far did it take you away?
 
So how do you catch it? Well, the trick here is on you. You can’t catch it as it is like chasing the “pot of gold” at the end of a rainbow or catching a falling star, you can’t. For you see they don’t really exist!!! There is no pot of gold and there is no chance to catch a falling star but we dream of these anyway. We hope and we dare to dream of things in a different way. Chasing doubt is much the same even if the affects it has are not the same. It only exists because you let it. If you don’t believe there is a “pot of gold” do you chase it? As you grow up from a child and those fantasies of that “pot of gold” fade into wishing it were true and new friend finds you. DOUBT!! You chase your new friend hoping to catch it like it is the new “dark gold” in your World.
 
Don’t, just don’t chase it, and don’t try to catch it. Let it be with the shooting stars and the end of rainbows!! Let it lie out there somewhere. Ignore it, move past it like it was a mosquito!! Take your step towards your goal and make your way to your own, your very own “pot of gold”. Let it dissolve because it only exists if you let it exist. Ignore it and don’t chase it!! Be free from your doubts!!!