Man can I get a break?

Man can I get a break?

Diabetes this and diabetes that, it is all I hear on TV or read in papers. Yes, I have diabetes and yes, I know it is a major problem now in the U.S. as well. However, I just need a break sometimes from hearing or reading about how this disease is going to do this or could do this or even that to me. There seems to be little in my body that diabetes won’t affect if left unchecked. I know this and am already afraid of it. So hearing it again and again only enhances my fears. It only serves to feed my anxiety as far as I can tell. I know what I should be doing and also what I should not be doing. Diabetes is part of me now and I can’t change that no matter what I do. I can work hard to control it and I do that. I often find myself wondering though if this is all for not. I mean sure it helps a little but any mistake or overload of sugar and I feel as though with each pump of my heart that the diabetes is slowly destroying me. It sure brings me down at times. I heard recently that for diabetics each year you live you age 1 ½ years because of diabetes and the affects it has on your body. Are you kidding me? Wow, great news there!!! Man, that really bothered me and still does bother me greatly. How is that helpful to hear? I just am not sure it is helpful in any possible way. So why try to battle so hard when it seems as if it is going to win anyway. I can win the battle but ultimately diabetes will win the war. At least that is how I feel it is portrayed in the media. Tell me the entire story, negative if you wish but why not include the positives too. There must be some out there as well. If I control my diabetes very well then what is the benefit? Tell me… just tell me the whole picture. Good, bad, and the ugly will do just fine for me. Just give me a break.