old poems 2

 

Poems/thoughts #1


No idea where or why.... Sometimes I just sit and let my fingers hit keys......this...this is some of that. I hope you enjoy.

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Oh so special……..
 
 
Our eyes met so long ago and revealed something that oh so special even way back when. We chose to ignore it and hoped it would go away. In time we thought, friends for life we would be. Well time has come and time has gone but yet we still long for that something ho so special. It is there and can’t be pushed away. It is there and has a life of its own. The connection is deep, so deep in fact that we know before the other knows. Pain, I know when you feel and you know when I feel it. Oh so special but yet we still push it away. We don’t dare to see each other as the sight of one another is just too much, that look, the connection just draws us near. A touch of hands, oh so special but yet we are apart. We will always be as we took paths that went in different directions, trying to ignore that oh so special something. We can push it away, we can fight it, we can try to deny it and yet it is still there. It won’t go away but we won’t let it in. Forever is a long time but forever you will be that something to me….. that something oh so special.

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Forever we will be again by Lloyd W.Alexander
Copyright 2006
 
 
Baby, baby, baby it was a time so long ago
A time way back when before I grew old
I held your hands, gave you my heart…
 
Everything is what you were to me
Everything is what I offered you.
Forever we said we would be.
 
Now as I grow old the memories of you
They don’t fade as do my other memories of yesteryear.
No need to shake the dust off those as they never faded.
Still right here they are, oh so real, so vivid.
 
Everything is what you were to me
Everything is what I offered you.
Forever we said we would be.
 
Oh your touch, your kiss….
Still so fresh like that spring day way back in the day
When we made love for the first time.
We became one for a fleeting moment in time.
 
Everything is what you were to me
Everything is what I offered you.
Forever we said we would be.
 
We promised we would grow old together.
Baby, baby, baby, I am here alone
How could you be gone for so long?
Life isn’t always fair.
You were here with me and now you’re there.
 
So quickly things change in this life.
In an instant you were gone, gone from this World.
Leaving me with a hole in my soul
As I grew old with a hole inside of me.
 
Everything is what you were to me
Everything is what I offered you.
Forever we said we would be.
 
They say time heals all baby.
I am here to tell you that it doesn’t.
I still smell you, feel you inside.
Longing for your touch. Longing for your kiss.
 
I am just passing time baby. Waiting for that day.
When you and I can be again.
Because baby, without you. Without you.
I just can’t be whole with out you baby.
 
Everything is what you were to me
Everything is what I offered you.
Forever we said we would be.
 
Everything is what you were to me
Everything is what I offered you.
Forever we said we would be.
 
Someday we will be again baby.
Forever we will be again.
Forever we will be again.
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thoughts of you... creep into my mind even when I beg for them to stay away..... my heart aches to hold you near..... the pain is a constant ache.... never leaving and never satisfied....... the vision of you coming near.....looking into your eyes.... smelling your shampoo as i pull you closer is all to real..... all too right..... sliding my hands around your hips and pulling you closer till our bodies touch and our hearts are near........ my hands caressing the small of your back as my nose nuzzles your ear.... slowly turning from nuzzle to nibble....... the thoughts run wild from that point..... but it is always there where it begins..... a simple look is all it takes..... our hearts a drawn.... our bodies become one...... quenching a deep thirst if only once.... one big gulp.... one aspirin for the aches............. then I wake and realize........ it was only another vision...... my heart still aches.
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racing
 
Thoughts of you race through my mind….. wow…what a feeling..so alive…. Happy.
 
Racing through my mind and towards my heart and soul.
 
I wish I could rewind to another time and start with only you in my mind.
 
Oh..the life we would lead… the times we be..so fun.
 
Racing through my mind are the times that still could be with you and me.
 
Racing through my mind are the secrets one must keep.
 
Racing through my mind to my heart is you……..
 
Are you there in my mirror fading with time? Or do you sit beside me on this crazy ride?
 
Racing towards good time down the road?
 
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Comforting hand
 
 
When I was down, when things were bad,
I used to feel your hand on my shoulder.
Comforting me in your own special way.
Letting me know the World wasn’t falling apart.
 
It didn’t matter if I was right or wrong. Your hand was, the comforting hand.
It was always understanding and never judging.
I could always count on you to let me be me.
 
Sometimes you would give a gentle nudge to get me moving again.
Maybe a little wag of a finger to show me the way.
You reassured me the steps were mine to take on my own.
Like a baby learning to walk, your guiding hand was always there to lessen the fall.
 
You were my angel here on Earth.
God took you one day.
Cancer was his way.
Your comforting hand on my shoulder till the end.
 
Now you are gone.
I am alone.
For so long I ignored the weight on my shoulder.
For so long, I just went unguided like a ship in a fog.
 
Now I realize you are still here with me.
That weight on my shoulder is you. Your hand
My lighthouse in the fog of life.
Comforting me, encouraging me, trying to lessen my fall.
 
My angel, my lighthouse, the hand on my shoulder.
My Nanna.
 
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Dark Night
 
As the sun fades I know you are coming.
I know soon the light shining in me will dim.
My fears, my demons will come from the corners of darkness within me.
 
They come when the darkness of night falls.
I can’t run fast enough to the next sunrise.
The darkness, the cold, the pitch black chill.
Seems to last forever.
 
I want to just give up and let go.
Let the dark night take me away.
Here I am, not running anymore.
Dark night take me away.
 
I give up. I give in.
You win and I am your prize.
Take me away dark night.
I can’t run anymore.
 
I am tired. I am beaten.
The demons of darkness.
You win.
 
Oh dark night take me now.
Take me away.
Take me now.
 
Oh a ray of light!!!
I made it through another night.
Dark night go away.
Go away!!! I win today.
Shine into my darkest corners light.
Light my soul!!! Erase the dark night!!