lonley days

Lonely days

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So many days it is just me. I hear no voice during the day other than my own. My phone does not ring. My door is free of anyone knocking. I sit and wonder how it became this way. I wonder why and I plain and simply cry. Not too big a man to shed a tear. No to big a man to lend a tear. No not me but then again it seems I only hear from those when they need to lean on me. I am here for you and you and you. I mean it too. Can't you be there for me too? My pain is the same as yours but to be your friend does it mean that my pain is less? I tell myself so and I won't turn my back on you. Yes, I've got your back even when you don't have mine. I am sad. Sad the days go on and yet I have heard for none. Anxiety has cost me so much. It has changed me in many ways but one day I will return to form. I know that day lies ahead and while do not know when I do know that it does exist. That life is my cup to fill and someday runneth over. I hike alone but know that the trail is mine to follow and that the journey is sure to make me smile. Others have walked these paths before and many will after I have gone on. I just wish that once in awhile you would walk with me too. To laugh, to talk, to smile, to just simply enjoy the view.a friend is what I desire. I am a big man but sometimes I need to lean to. My heart is tender and yet it is never enough to just be what I am now. Anxiety keeps me on edge and others simply do not understand. I do what I can so please understand. Can't you still be my friend?



Feeling loney…feeling lost ………..on simply way too many days. Where does the trail lead? What is my ultimate journey? Questions but no answers…….